Exercise since last post:
Saturday: 1hr hike across Manchester carrying massive powder skis and boots
Monday: circuit training
Tuesday: boxing class
Exercise was pretty good. I should have done something on Sunday but after driving for 1.5 hours in 2deg temperatures with no roof or windscreen I just wanted to stay cuddled up under a blanket in the warm. I really wasn't in my right mind that day as when I got back home I realised with horror that I had left the front door ajar the whole time I was out!
Eating went well all week except for then ruining it by eating lots of blue cheese AND crisps on Saturday. Dammit! I really need to occupy my time more at the weekend as its when I'm home alone that I lose motivation to exercise and want to comfort eat. It's also when I feel most lonely and I can't tell you how much I miss having someone give me a big hug.
Thought I would be over this by now but clearly seeing your ex at work every day slows down the recovery process. We have developed some kind of dysfunctional friendship where he comes to my desk to chat to me most days. He brought me in some homecooked curry when i was ill and i checked up on him with texts when he was off sick. I KNOW its not a good idea and isn't helping me get over him (even though i broke it off). I don't think either of us want to get back together so maybe we're both just clinging on?
I'm tired of having to deal with the mixed-up emotions though. The 7 weeks away from work are my chance to finally make the psychological break. No texting, no emailing. Radio silence. Makes me feel sad thinking about it. I SO haven't moved on yet.
Enough of that nonsense though and on with another PT session tomorrow and bootcamp on Thursday, hopefully leading to a loss this week. Pleeeaaaase be kind scales, I need a boost.