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Tuesday, 14 February 2012

A lot going on

I've been trying to write this for ages but it's been sitting in drafts. I just can't be arsed to make it sound less jumbled so here is everything that has been going on.

Had a redundancy scare but escaped for the third time in as many years. Work is as stressful as ever so part of me was almost hoping for them to let me go.

Matt is moving out in a few weeks and I'm going to be single and alone for the first time in 18 years. I'm scared and sad, but relieved that the turmoil is over.

When I'm on my own during the day at work I start to feel stronger about it all and a bit excited about being in control of my life again. But when I get home I feel upset being here together when it's all going to end soon. Neither of us can afford to make it happen any quicker so will have to be patient.

We do the same job in the same office so can't avoid each other unless one of us can get a new job. So for now we'll just try the staying friends thing. I'm kind of embarrassed about everyone at work finding out we've split up.

Need to decide whether to stay in the Peak District or move closer to work and family.
I can't car share anymore and all my rent and bills will double.

But staying for the summer at least seems a good idea so I can avoid the upheaval of a move whilst I get used to living on my own.

Three weeks to go until skiing holiday and the snowboard pants I ordered won't do up. There is no give in the fabric so my usual lunge technique isn't working! I'm getting nervous about meeting the new people and if their first thought as i walk towards them will be "what a porker".

Despite everything going on I've not gone off the rails too much with food and have kept running even if it meant doing it in snow boots. The shorts were a mistake tho.

and finally to end on a happy note here's a pic of next doors' new puppies. Awwwww

Well there's a disturbing glimpse into the contents of my head right now.

Sunday, 5 February 2012

Moving in the right direction

This morning i spent 3 hours shovelling snow off the little lane that links my house to the main road. My neighbours' Dad joined me for the second shift and despite being in his late 60s he worked so hard. I hope I am that fit when I'm his age. This is just a third of what we cleared.

Matt spent the whole time in the house laying on the sofa, except for when he came out to test his car and promptly compacted all the snow we hadn't yet cleared.

Afterwards I walked through the snow to the local pub, by this stage bent over like a Neanderthal after all the shovelling. I asked if Millie the Labrador needed a walk as they are so busy at the weekends (the food is ah-may-zing!) that she sometimes doesn't get out enough. Unfortunately she'd already been out so I carried on alone.

The rest of this week has been good with four runs done. Once a week i do a longer route of 5miles but mostly i do 5k. For some reason this week my calves have stopped hurting all the way round which makes it so much more bearable. On Friday night I got Matt to drop me off on the way home from work so I could get a couple of miles extra in. It was, however too dark and I absolutely papped myself on this scary trail. Kept thinking I could see shadowy figures in the distance.

The scales are heading in the right direction: 8lbs lost so far this year but still a whopping 9lbs to shift to get back into lightest territory by the ski trip in 4 weeks. Maybe doable, just.