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Monday, 31 October 2011

The night before weigh-in. Scaaarrryy!

First of all look who came trick or treating tonight....

It was a genius stroke by next doors kids as I promptly handed over all the sweets and my two pumpkins in return for a puppy cuddle.

Monday to Friday i was really good food-wise and managed a couple of bike rides at lunch. But then on saturday i ate too many halloween biscuits during a baking session. Then I made the mistake of having a glass of wine at the pub whilst out walking and subsequently found myself at Hartington Cheese shop. Dammit!

I had hideous cheese-fuelled nightmares last night and felt soooo miserable this morning. I didnt drink enough to be hungover, I just felt really disappointed with myself for ending the week on a low.
On friday morning the scales were down another 2lbs to 13st 7 but I bet that has disappeared when I step on the scales tomorrow morning. How annoying would that be to ruin things at the weekend after a whole week of goodness.

I've been getting used to using a roofless car for every day duties. Bit embarrassing taking the recycling as everyone can see and hear exactly how much of a lush I am!

Tomorrow I'm having winter tyres fitted. I can't do anything about it being rear wheel drive and half the weight of a normal car. But I can at least fit the best rubber for the upcoming conditions. I'm secretly hoping I'll be passing expensive 4x4 cars when the snow comes but in reality I'll most likely have frozen to death within a mile of the house.

Work is a total nightmare at the moment and as a result I'm sporting a cold sore and twitchy eye. Just hanging in until Friday when I go to Great Langdale for a week with my family.

Tuesday, 25 October 2011

Weekly weigh in - 10 weeks till year end

Down 3lbs to 13st 9lbs this week. I've finally got control of my eating. Just wish I'd done that sooner and not wasted months hovering up and down around the same weight. Another 4lbs off and then it's back into lightest results.

Ive gone back to the stuff I know works, nothing too extreme. Decent breakfast; salad & jacket potato for lunch; protein and veg for dinner with no starchy carbs. I'm cooking big batches of things like chilli at the weekend and working my through that during the week. There's always something easy and quick in the fridge when I get home from work. Plus my lovely mum made me portions of her delish tomatoey chicken casserole in a very wrong reversal of meals on wheels. Wine is out and diet mixers are in.

Last week I only managed two bike rides. Including a great sidi Sunday ride with my buddy Ads. Hmmmm pretty shoes.....

This week I'm upping that to 4 or 5 rides this week by taking my bike to work for short lunchtime rides and then longer rides at the weekend. Need to add some weights back in but this time I am trying to get each habit well established before adding the next.

I did write a section to do with Matt moving out but it was so depressing I don't want to read it so for now will focus on losing weight. At least I'm not eating my way through emotional turmoil as I have in the past.

Next doors new puppy did cheer me up falling asleep in my arms...

Tuesday, 18 October 2011

Weekly weigh in - 11 weeks to go

13st 12 this morning thank goodness. Yesterday gave me such a boot up the arse that I feel really determined to get a wriggle on now. I want to shift the next 5lbs really quick so I'm back at my lightest and moving in the right direction.

I made a big batch of spicy chilli last night and had a bowl with peas, a blob of low fat creme fraiche and a tiny grating of cheese. Yum! Perfect Autumn warmer.

I'm already looking forward to another bowl tonight which is a good job as I am buying fish and chips for Matt tonight to say thanks for taking me (and my parcel shelf!) to the car dealer on the way home from work. I'm not even stealing one of his chips!

Monday, 17 October 2011

Total Jellyhead

Last night in preparation for selling my car this morning I checked my list of things I had to take and laid it all out ready for the morning. This seemed wise as in the morning I had to wash the car and pack all my bike kit into it ready for cycling home.
So this morning I got up and sorted the car, packed my bag (making a mental note to include some food and eat before I left) and put the bike in the car. I did contemplate rechecking my list but decided that was overkill as I'd done that last night of course.

I'm all set to leave and go to where I laid out the car keys (with spare key attached so I don't forget that).
They're not there.
Silly me I must have moved them back into the ''muddle drawer" in the kitchen. They're not there.

Fast forward 20minutes, the house looks like a bomb has gone off and I am running down the road to see if the rubbish bags have been collected because that is the only place left to check.
The bags aren't there.

I start crying in disbelief that despite my efforts I have managed to lose BOTH car keys on the day I am selling the car. I can't even get into the car where the manual sits with the number for ordering replacement keys. Replacement car keys are really expensive and this stupid car has already cost £5k in a year! I try to calm myself down and think logically but I've totally lost the plot. I'm only selling the damn thing because it's costing me too much and because Matt is moving out but quite clearly I'm not fit to live alone.

I check the muddle drawer for the 4th time.
The keys are there.
I cannot believe my eyes?! How can I not have seen them THREE TIMES?! Hysterical laughter ensues and I somehow make it to the dealer just on time.
I have, however, forgotten the parcel shelf which was on the list I didn't re-check. I have also forgotten to eat or pack food and left my helmet at home. I buy a cheap helmet and energy food from conveniently located bike shop across from the dealer and begin the 20 mile ride home.
It was a truly horrible journey with such a strong headwind I could barely reach 6mph on the flat on the exposed sections. I may actually have been travelling backwards on the uphill bits.

I get back to find roofers have erected scaffolding across the drive blocking the way. I have to do a Catherine Zeta Jones style contortion routine to get me and my bike through it. Im just in time to pant my way through a teleconference whilst sitting in wet cycling gear. Did I mention it rained aswell?

Oh and I saw 14.0stone on the scales this morning. WAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH! I am, however, NOT accepting that, am going to be so good this week that I'll be back into the 13s ASAP and pretend today never happened. Here's hoping it is back in the 13s by tomorrow.

My friend Ads came up with the genius idea of emailing our daily food diaries to each other. I think that will really work as for some reason I can't lie when I'm sending it to someone else. I can lie to myself no problem and clearly have done very well at that to put 7lbs on since August!

Some good friends of mine were waiting for medical results today I'm delighted to say it was not what was feared and they can carry on working to beat it. It sure puts things in perspective. All of my worries today were trivial nonsense that in hindsight were quite funny. And hey I must've burnt loads of calories running around the house like a panicking maniac!

Hope y'all had a good Monday.

Sunday, 16 October 2011

In the wee hours

Every night this week I've had a dodgy stomach wake me up and after trips to the loo I can't get back to sleep for thinking about things. Not sure if I've picked up a bug or what? Hey I'd probably have lost weight from all this if I hadn't done zero exercise and eaten so much crap this week. I am dreading getting on the scales and seriously worried I'll see the dreaded 14 again.

Yesterday was a particularly pants morning as I sold my car in preparation for the increased expense of living on my own. Selling a year old car that you bought new is about as painful as it gets financially but it's costing me too much each month and has been really disappointing all round. I can't face buying anything else right now so will get a lift to and from work with Matt whilst we are still at the same place. It will be at least a couple of months before he moves out as both of us are a bit skint and he has to find somewhere.

Wow my blog is really depressing when I post at 3am whilst suffering from stomach cramps!!

On a brighter note I did have a nice afternoon in Buxton with my friend Manda with a few drinks.....see:

I'll try to have a better week and stick to my plans. I have to cycle back from the car dealer on Monday morning after I handover my car so that will be a good start to the week. I am so grumpy when I don't exercise!

Saturday, 15 October 2011

A hell of a week

Pffffffff! Holiday seems a distant memory after this week. I went back to work with plans to cycle most lunchtimes, to eat healthy regular meals and drink lots of water. Perhaps a tad unrealistic after two weeks off. I have in fact not managed to ride at all, drank lots of diet coke and ate sporadically and not particularly healthily. Arse.
Yesterday I even had my bike in the car and had half my bike gear on but still didn't manage to get out. The shoes are awful pretty with jeans though! ;)

On top of the workload it's been stressful at home because I finally got the courage to do something about my failing relationship. We're going to live separately again. Maybe going back to having our own space and dating will help get some of the feelings back that I've lost and stop me feeling so depressed about the future.

I feel really awful for forcing this on him and can't believe I'm back in this situation again, being the bad guy. But after lots of talking things through this week I know it's the right thing to do and he agrees it's the best hope for us. I think the prospect of having skytv, fast broadband and a pub within walking distance helped him come round to the idea!!

I feel quite excited about living on my own and getting some independence back but I'm also sad about being on my own more and worried about how I'm going to pay all the house costs on my own over winter.
I feel a spreadsheet and some lists coming on!

Sunday, 9 October 2011

Hetty and Pixie's Adventures Part 2

I managed to drag myself out for a ride on Wednesday on a windy and grey day. I found it disconcerting being blown sideways on the bike and why is the wind always against you when you're struggling uphill?

I managed the 20 miles to Adams Farm OK but had forgotten to have breakfast or pack any food so can't tell you how much I enjoyed this chilli in the farm cafe

I managed to be a good girl and leave the garlic bread behind but inhaled the rest of it.

I think I had been cold and sitting for too long as when I got back on the bike it was a real struggle (despite trying to counteract the headwind with my own chilli trumps!). The next destination was 9 miles further on at the best farmshop I've ever seen, Daylesford Organics. It had a cheese room and everything! I asked if I could rent it for a holiday. ;)

Matt met me there in the car so i didn't have to carry stuff home. It took all the willpower I had to turn down his offer of a lift home and get back on the bike. It got windier and I just had to keep my head down and not look too far ahead to get up the rolling hills. By the time I got near home I had done 43.5 miles and decided to go for the 50 mile target which I haven't managed before. So of course I rode to another farmshop with a cheese selection. Well whatever motivates you, right?! Another quick loop around the village and I saw the magic number...

I can't imagine doing twice as far to get a century but it will be a good long term target. It would be so much easier if I wasn't carrying around all this fat. Some people I ride with are over 4 stone lighter?! That must be a brilliant feeling. Perhaps I should make them carry weights in a rucksack?

Not surprisingly I had Thursday and Friday off the bike with a little run on Friday to and from the pub. Matts friends had come to stay for our last night and I was surprised to have a really great time. It was a good way to end the holiday, but did involve way too much food and drink.

I had a very cold drive back on Saturday with the last 45mins in rain. Not pleasant but all part of the adventure I guess.

Today I went for a quick hour long ride which was horrible as it was windy and pouring with rain.

So overall I did about 225miles on hols. BUT I really didn't eat well especially the second week and drank almost every night. It was a great holiday!! I'm not looking forward to weigh in on Tuesday but will have to focus on the positives that I'm back exercising regularly and feel heaps better.

Wednesday, 5 October 2011

Weekly weigh-in 13 weeks to go

Except I forgot one crucial piece of equipment. Weighing scales! Forgot I'd be away from home and I'm not going to use those machines in Boots as they frown upon people taking all their clothes off (plus jewellery and hair bobble of course on the offchance they weigh a stone).

I'm not sure what I would be expecting to see on the scales if I did weigh-in today. I've done lots of cycling and definitely met my goal of getting back into regular exercise. But I've had way too much wine and some bad food too so maybe it would result in a stay the same?

My leg muscles are still sore despite having a day off the bike yesterday. I generally feel really tired today but feel like I should get back out on the bike. Not sure I'm getting this holiday balance right. Part of it is that I want to be on my own and going for a ride is a good excuse.

Yesterday we went into Oxford. I loved the bike culture and was amazed how brave commuters of all ages were in battling against the buses and vans.

I was very restrained with shopping and just bought a cheap bike computer so I don't have to manually plot rides to work out how far I've gone. I've used the mapmyride iPhone app a couple of times but it saps battery power and I'm dubious about the accuracy as the max speed was over 50mph on both rides?!

On the way back from Oxford we stopped for lunch and I made a healthy choice. It was yummy and Cajun chicken salad is going on my list of healthy teas when I get home.

I then ruined it all by having a Mcdonalds for dinner. What an idiot! I didn't even enjoy it...much.

So back on the bike today if I can drag myself out. It'll be my first road ride in the wet so i will be taking it steady (which is my only available speed anyway!).

Monday, 3 October 2011

A day in pictures


I actually swapped my sausages for tomato and mushroom though!

Lots of this...

A realisation that I totally need new shoes. Look at these old Pixie must be so embarrasses.

A bit more of this

And now doing this

Is it wine o'clock yet?

Didn't make it to Adams Farm today as it was too hot so will save that for rainy Wednesday. Off to Oxford tomoro v excited as have never been and there are lots of bike shops. "LEWIIIISSSSS!".

Sunday, 2 October 2011

Hetty and Pixie's Adventure Part 1

We've had fun together so far and as of today have ridden 6 days out of 7 and over 150miles. We've got lost, met some friendly locals and only eaten out twice. Shock horror! I even resisted this...

It's been too hot to eat much especially when out riding, which has led to some dizzy moments. I made up for it in the evening though so don't worry Mum!
The South Downs were ace, much hillier than I imagined and quiet roads. I had an extra gear put on my bike with an extra 2 teeth which helped a bit but there's no escaping the fact that I just plain need to get stronger.

Had a hideous journey up to the Cotswolds where, despite wearing shinpads, I seriously thought my feet and legs would melt because so much heat was coming off the engine into the footwell.

The cottage is lovely but I'm finding it a bit annoying not being on my own, which is a bit worrying.

I was especially disappointed to receive a lecture last night about how I need to plan better and think more when arranging my trips. I counted to 10 and let it go but have stored that one for future pondering when I don't have to worry about ruining my holiday.

I got up early this morning to get a ride in before it got too hot. Now in the recovery position with a drinkie. Cheers!

This week I'm looking forward to more exploring by bike and going Adams Farm off of Countryfile. If he has piglets I may have to be restrained!! :)