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Thursday, 21 April 2011

Bakewell Park

Bootcamp and melons

Well I've not done very well with blogging regularly have I?! The last week has flown by and I'm just hanging in there until the long bank holiday weekend starts. My week off work holidaying in wales seems like forever ago but to be quite honest it was a bit of a pants holiday so im happy to let those memories fade.  This weekend I'll enjoy staying at home with no sleep deprivation, no crying baby and no lectures from wine snobs. 
Well I say no sleep deprivation but I seem to be waking up at 3:30am this week and not being able to get back to sleep due to all the stuff whizzing around my head. But hey it gives me extra time to blog and catch up on emails so gotta look at the bright side.

My eating hasn't exactly been brilliant since my last post and I also haven't been stellar at cutting back on the wine. But I've had more diet mixers (which were supposed to replace the wine) does that count?! ;)  

Exercise is going really well though as I've started going to bootcamp (outdoor circuit training class) twice a week run by my trainer Jon. I've really enjoyed being outdoors and it's fun sharing the suffering with other people. Hopefully i can make some new local friends too.
I was SO stiff after the first session last Saturday but I kind of like that feeling as it's a constant reminder during the day that you've pushed yourself. The class is in a park a very hilly bike ride from home. Today I cycled there but got a lift back as I wasnt sure if i'd be able to get home before dark. But on Saturday morning I'll cycle home after the session so I can work out how long it takes. It's steep uphill for about the first 20mins but I can take my time. There was a great atmosphere in the park today with people jogging, football matches, hot air balloons taking off and of course the glorious weather. I could almost imagine I was in Central Park instead of Bakewell!  Okay, maybe not!

A minor victory today was managing a set of kettlebell swings with the 20kg bell. Next target is to be able to do three full sets with 20kg on all the variations. 

 I've just realised I've been doing the class with only one bra on so I can officially turn that goal on the left menu green.  Whoo hooooo I am no longer disabling myself with my massive melons!! :)

Since I threw my scales away last week I don't know how bad the damage was from my 'March madness'. All my smaller clothes still fit fine, so it can't be that bad, but I definitely need to get back on track with my eating to get that fat shifting again. I think I'll do one more week of gut-busting exercise and then get Jon to do my weight. At least if it's not good news the body fat and tape measures may still be improving and lessen the blow!

Unfortunately my jog buddy Liz has a back injury so can't run anymore. She's happy to go walking at lunch instead so my plan is to do one lap walking and then another jogging on my own. However my weekly schedule is looking a bit lacking in rest days so perhaps I should just be walking rather than jogging:

Monday - bike to PT 
Tuesday - walk/jog
Wednesday - bike to bootcamp
Thurs - walk/jog
Fri - bike to PT
Sat - bike to bootcamp
Sun - long hike

One thing I've noticed is how much extra laundry you create with exercising?! Whatever money I'm saving on petrol by biking to the sessions will be ploughed back into stocks of Persil and the water bill!

Wednesday, 13 April 2011

Second wind

During my holiday reflections I realise things have been slipping on the eating and drinking front since the beginning of March due to various excuses like birthday, work stress and holiday. I have at least kept up the exercise but it's not enough on its own.

I've only been back at work two days but already feel stressed out and have started waking up in the middle of the night worrying about stuff. When I get home the last thing I want to do is exercise even though I know it's exactly what would make me feel better. Much more so than a glass of wine or biscuit.

So it's time to get myself organised and reinstate the structure that worked up until March:

-Start food diary again. It definitely helps and I can't kid myself I'm doing well if I'm not.
-Blog more regularly. When I don't it's usually because I've been naughty!
-Restock the house with healthy food and get rid of the bad stuff.
-Give wine a miss for a couple of weeks and stick to diet mixers.
-Get exercise kit ready the night before.

Sunday, 10 April 2011

Week 15 - reflections so far.

Having a break from work and from the training/dieting has given me time to reflect on progress so far and it seems a good idea to capture those thoughts now so I can look back and to this point if im struggling in the future.

The Good:
I went shopping yesterday and everything I tried on was a size 16 and fitted so that is a result as I was an 18-20 when I started. I'm sort of starting to figure out what my style is (or could be). And realising that it's okay for me not to wear floaty floral dresses or cutting edge fashion if that's not what suits me. I'm more of a preppy/layering/slightly sporty chick and have started finding clothes from brands I couldn't fit into before like Musto, Saltwater, Crew Clothing etc.
I've fallen in love with mountain biking again, enjoy running and have started to feel a lot stronger from all the training sessions. I feel like my old self again and proud of what my body can do and that's still with carrying an extra 3 stone so I can only imagine what it will be like when that physical and emotional ballast has gone.
I've made some new friends and socialised a lot more. Basically stopped hiding away.

The Bad:
Getting a bit of confidence back has made me question some of the other areas in my life and I'm not sure what to do about that so for now am just trying to enjoy the present and will park those particular worries until I'm further towards my goals. I don't want to make rash decisions whilst I'm still in the process of changing.

I still eat way too much cheese and drink too much. I'm definitely still trying to get the balance right between getting out more/having fun and still maintaining a steady weight loss.

The Ugly:
Scales obsession:
I couldn't bring myself to get on the scales yesterday as I can guarantee I haven't stayed the same during my holiday as I really did eat and drink whatever I liked for seven days. It was fantastic to get away from scales for a week which shows how much of an obsession I have developed. I hate that my mood is entirely dictated by what they say. My primary goals when I started this was to get fit and be able to buy nice clothes so why have I become so hung up one measurement? I simply cannot stop weighing myself daily so I am wondering if I should just throw my scales away and just get weighed by my personal trainer every 4 weeks when he also does all the other measurements. Any advice from you seasoned weight loss experts?

So my advice to myself for the next Phase:
Cut alcohol right back again
Exercise every day
Stretch every night
Make an effort with clothes/hair every day even when you can't be arsed- you know it makes you feel better
Fewer carbs, more protein
Drink lots of water

Thursday, 7 April 2011

Barn in the sunshine

Fun in the sun

I eventually got a whole 3 hours sleep so felt shattered when I got to the course at 9:30am (having got lost several times on the way). However the sun was out it was really warm and my instructor was great so it was worth it all. We did a lot of work on dealing with fear, not using brakes so much and (contrary to a lot of previous advice) not hanging back off the saddle on drop offs, steps etc. This felt odd the first few times as it gets drummed into you to get your weight as far back as you can. But with a more central position I felt much more in control and was able to move my body around more to balance. It will be interesting to try it on my local trails.

When I got home I played around on the bike for a bit and then sat in the sun with a Bacardi and diet cherry coke (yum!). The weather made so much difference I'm glad I didn't go home (I had the car packed!). I do now have lobster red arms complete with bike glove tan line though!

Wednesday, 6 April 2011

So it's 2am......

....and my (soon to be ex-)boyfriend is still having a loud drunken debate downstairs about taxation and the varying quality of tarmac across European roads. Heading for my 5th night in a row of sub-4hrs sleep. SO ANNOYED!!!

Tuesday, 5 April 2011

Jog Dog

My jogging partner for the week, Harry. I'd do a lot more running if I had my own dog. It's so much more fun with him gambling along beside me.

Feet up

Day 1 before the weather turned and before "THE PRAWNS" otherwise there would be bicycle clips around the bottom of my trousers!

Brightening up

Despite another rubbish night of sleep I'm feeling a lot better today as am fully in control of my bowels. Sorry for my whinge yesterday and thanks for the comments. Sleep deprivation does funny things to the mind. I can see why they use it as a torture method! Turns out it was some tiger prawns that caused the stomach upset so think I'll be avoiding shellfish for a while.
However despite the terrible weather I've managed to get out exercising every day. Im booked on a mountain bike course all day tomorrow and the forecast shows sunshine. Fingers crossed!!

Monday, 4 April 2011

Fed up

Holiday turning out a bit turdy. So disappointed! But desperately trying to look at the bright side....err...explosive diarrhoea = weight loss and feeling homesick actually means that the Peak District has started to feel like home to me afterall. Now trying to figure out how I can go home early without massively offending everyone. I just can't face another 4 nights of crap sleep due to screaming baby, snoring men and numerous trips to the toilet (Or 'shittle runs' as I call them). :(