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Saturday, 22 November 2014

Ok let's lose the same stone again for the gazillionth time!

Yes here I am at the top end of the 12s again when last time I blogged over a year ago I was a stone lighter. Getting a bit bored of wandering up and down the 12s although with everything that's been going on its amazing I haven't gone any higher so I should be grateful for that.

In the last year I had to decide between taking redundancy at the end of 2015 or relocating 200 miles south in a new job with the same company. I spent a lot of time exploring my options and came to the conclusion that my 'dream' jobs would either not be affordable or end up turning something I love into a chore (ski instructor being a good example of both). So I applied for and got the new job after my first interview for 8 years. I was so ridiculously nervous I don't know how I didn't just pass out. It didn't help that the guy interviewing me had forgotten the teleconference details (the second interviewer was dialling in) so I had to run down stairs to get them and by the time I got back to the interview room I was out of breath, sweaty and typed the number into the phone wrongly no less than 3 times. My new v-neck boden tunic had also moved inappropriately low so I had to do a bit of hoisting to hide my best assets!

So I'm moving to a city I had never been to until two months ago. I'm a bit scared and worried about being lonely moving away from friends and family. But I'll just have to throw myself into things and not think too much. Im going to join a rowing club and a cycling club for starters so need to get fit starting NOW!  I don't want to start this adventure worrying about muffin tops and not being able to breathe in my maximum control underwear.

Oh and did I mention I'm also turning 40 in March?!  Yeah time to stop treading water and get on with my life!

Friday, 6 September 2013

Week 1 Bootcamp results

Just a quickie to say 8lbs and 10 inches gone. Whooooooo! In the 11s too. :)



Sunday, 1 September 2013

Bootcamp

So far on Bootcamp we've done:

Fitness test
5km shuttle run on the beach
Archery interspersed with sprints and squats (random?!)
HIIT circuit training session
2hr hilly mountain bike ride
Abs blast
Running drills and intervals on the beach
Nutrition talk
HIIT Circuit training
Boxing

....it's lunchtime on DAY 2 of 14. I'm a bit shell-shocked but very happy!




Sunday, 18 August 2013

Taking the plunge


Today I went swimming for the first time in years. I realise how tragic that sounds but I got into a mental block about having to wear so little clothing in public. And the longer I left it the worse it got. You see, I'm the kind of person who gets changed into gym gear in the toilet and walks to and from showers with 15 towels wrapped around me. I think it stems from P.E. at school. I loved sports but the teachers seemed to be control freaks and insisted on weird rules like not allowing me to wear Lycra shorts under my games skirt or a t-shirt under the running vest. I don't think I ever got past that 'embarrassed about my body' stage.

So the thought of having to walk out of the changing room into the pool in front of strangers made me shudder. But i did it today and that's a massive challenge ticked off my list. Don't worry I'm not now going to off the rails and start running down the high street with my knockers out!

I would really like to have a swim lesson though so I can learn proper freestyle stroke. My technique involves expending a huge amount of energy for very little forward motion. It must be SO satisfying to glide through the water.

The other plunge I took was to book onto a two week residential bootcamp holiday starting at the end of August. I'm properly nervous about it but also looking forward to having my ass kicked. I might also be able to hit my original target weight of 160lbs and then start setting fitness goals instead of obsessing about the scales. It sounds like there will be more challenges to overcome during the camp too, like abseiling, surfing etc. Oh and not drinking anything but water for 2 weeks? That's gotta be worth at least 5lb weight loss without the diet or exercise!






Tuesday, 6 August 2013

Wine = willpower fail

So there I am congratulating myself on losing again last week but I got a shock when I stepped on the scales this morning. 3lbs on since Friday. One hell of a weekend?! I know I always get a spike from the salty food and booze but that really tells how MUCH I let things slip.

Friday night I drank prosecco but ate healthily despite a really strong urge to go to the petrol station and buy crap.

Saturday morning I ummed and ahhhed about going for a run but fannied about for so long there wasn't time before going out to meet a friend for the afternoon drinking session. I stuck to prosecco but then we had a bowl of chips with dips. Then I had a glass of wine whilst waiting for the train. Mind you I did then go to a family BBQ and didn't drink anymore or eat carbs.

Sunday it all went horribly wrong. I started well by walking 9 miles to my friends house. We had prosecco and a platter of meats and cheeses.....and then she brought out a massive Italian flatbread with rosemary and garlic. It was like a freakin' single duvet size and I wanted to dive in and cuddle it!! I ate lots. Then I called in at co-op on my way home and got Pringles. Epic salty carb binge with extra wine.

I felt horrible on Monday. Bloated, a bit hungover and depressed. Really not worth the temporary enjoyment. I got straight back on the healthy eating and walked 14 miles, but I was beating myself up something rotten. Shame I felt like that the first day my ex was back at work from his holiday too. No chance of me doing a Beyonce-style glowing strut through the office. More of a hunched over shuffle. At least I managed to curtail the conversation politely when he came over to tell me all about his holiday instead of shouting "PISS OFF I HAVE A HEADACHE!!".

So I hope to see a return to the 12st 5 sometime this week but there's no getting away from the fact I've pressed pause for a week.

I have avoided social plans for the next two weekends so no temptation. Although being home alone can make me want to eat and drink to fill the empty void. I really can't win either way but will keep on trying.



Saturday, 3 August 2013

Fresh Fat

I'm typing this whilst having a drink at a pub on my own. I know?! How very DARE I? My train was cancelled part way back from an afternoon of cocktails with a friend so it seemed the thing to do rather than spending 40 sober minutes at the station.

I've carried on losing since my last post so now down to 12st 5! That is fresh fat since erm at least 10 years ago. I was 12st 10 when I got married and last time I remember being 11stone something was at university a depressing 18 years ago.

For the first time I can remember there is nothing in my wardrobe that is too small?! All my "shrink into" clothes now fit but some look shit so size really isn't everything and I hereby swear never to buy anything to shrink into again as it is a total waste of money.

I've been sticking with low carb eating, all fresh food cooked from scratch and having one or two protein shakes a day as meal replacements. It's so much easier than preparing food and I swear the green tea, cartinine content gives me an energy boost for walking to work.

I am completely obsessed with avocado, spinach and tomato so my dinners are looking a bit samey but tasty and filling so who cares!!:












I've had a blissful week at work whilst Matt has been on holiday. It makes me realise what life would be like without the opression of seeing my ex every day. I like it. A lot!
....but not enough to lose out on 1.75x my salary so I will have to stick it out until redundancy and in the meantime continue hoping he gets another job.

I know losing weight shouldn't be necessary to feel more confident and in control. But for me it makes a massive difference. It really is the answer to some of my problems. And now I really want to get to my original goal, in 13lbs time, and then see where I'm at. And carry on until my legs look like this



and my arms look like this



I think it's safe to say ill be on that journey for at least 10 years!! :)

Sunday, 21 July 2013

Best personal trainer EVER!

Meet Archie, my new trainer!



With his harness on and my cani-cross running leash we managed 15 miles of running this weekend. I will be moving like prehistoric woman tomorrow but it was worth it. There was one moment today in an empty part of the park when I let rip and sprinted as hard as I could. Archie was running with me and for one amazing moment I forgot about what I looked like and felt completely free. And strong!! I like that feeling and want more of it!

4lbs off this week. I want more of that too purty please. Now the temperatures have eased there is no excuse so get out there and kick ass!

Wednesday, 17 July 2013

Gosh what a long time it's been again!  And what a lot has happened!

When I last posted I was just about to get the news about my job.  I felt totally sick with nerves sitting in the big conference centre waiting to hear my fate.  The bad news is my job is indeed 'eliminated' (makes it sound like I get taken out by a sniper?!) but the good news is not until 2015/2016 so I have plenty of time to figure out what the hell to do next!

It never occurred to me that I would have that long left.  It's great that I get to spend more time living near my family and with relative security of a well paid job.  But a little part of me was a bit disappointed that I couldn't go and do something more exciting sooner.  I had already found the perfect 18 week ski course to do for example.  Really can't afford not to wait for the redundancy though as I have no savings to fall back on if I took the gamble to leave now.

Possible options for the future are a bit hazy in my head so far but could involve contract work in Switzerland (living in France as it's cheaper), or combining my sports science degree and project management experience to go into health club management?, or....er....give me a minute...   Hmmm seems I will need this time to figure it out afterall!

To start with I'm booking on lots of the free training courses at work, plus a 34 week French course which should get my pants A-level french back up to scratch and help with the Switzerland option.

Diet and fitness wise I'm exactly the same weight as when I last posted, 12st 13lbs.  Proving only that I have to do 2 hours exercise a day in order to eat shed loads and maintain.  I've lost a few inches so must have swapped some muscle for fat, but I still want to get this final stone and a half off. I'm walking 10miles a day in total and have cut back the calories quite a lot to see if that gets things moving again.  I've also given up wine for a bit (NOOOOOOO!) as it really is the source of all willpower loss for me.  Gin & waitrose sugar-free tonic all the way, sometimes with frozen raspberries in it instead of ice cubes.  Yum!
This week is the first time I've EVER worn anything sleeveless at work, so there's something ticked off my list. :)

Some pics from the last couple of months:
My new fave beach Hells Mouth:




Out for a run with Humphrey, no honest we did do some running!






Hopefully I will start to see the scales moving in the next few days. Fingers crossed!!!

Saturday, 18 May 2013

Change is a comin'....

...Lots of it! Next week I find out if my job is being eliminated and if I can apply for other positions. The company is reorganising on a massive scale. There are so many possible outcomes it's really difficult to guess what my fate will be. At best I'll stay with the same company in a new job and have to relocate miles away in a couple of years. At worst I'll be made redundant by the end of this year. So change is coming whether I'm ready or not!

I'm scared and excited all at the same time. I know things need to change for me to grow in confidence and ability. But now I could do anything and go anywhere I don't know where to start?! This isn't so much one of life's crossroads but more like a roundabout with 1000s of exits. I'm aimlessly doing donuts around and around whilst my colleagues know exactly where they want to go (and have a car full of family to go on the journey with).

The good thing is I'll have a decent pay out so will have a bit of time to figure it out. I don't believe in this idea that there is one true calling in life. That the magazines would have you believe you need to find otherwise you've failed as a human being. Just like I don't believe there is just one true love of your life. It's statistically impossible.

I think you just have to pick something (or someone!) that seems like a good fit and give it a good go. If it doesn't turn out to be quite right then move on and take what you've learnt into your next attempt.

Guess I'm not a romantic then?!

As you can imagine the atmosphere at work is awful. Its really easy to get dragged down by all the moaning, conspiracy theories and disastracising. But yesterday I decided I'm going to remain positive and keep smiling no matter what. Even if I don't feel like it I'll fake it.

My workload has dropped so I'm getting out for a walk at lunchtime as well as running to and from work.
The temptation to eat and drink myself through this upheaval is strong, but I know exercise and continuing to lose weight will give me the confidence and energy I really need.

This weekend I'm cleaning the house, clearing stuff out. Getting things in order so there are no distractions. The lounge has been turned into a mini gym. Meals and food shopping are planned out.

And on Sunday a house guest arrives until Monday night. Looking forward to lots of cuddles with Archie!




Monday, 13 May 2013

Helloooo 12s!

Well having been stuck in the 13s for nearly two years I'm finally back in the 12s. Whoop whoop!

I've been eating around 1200 cals 5 days out of 7 and doing a minimum of an hour of exercise every day.

Upcoming weight targets are:

- 12st 10 (my wedding weight and three stone lost)

- Wear my size 14 jeans in public. They do up now but the muffin top can be seen from space!

- Into the 11s by 21st June when I'm going away for a weekend that involves wearing schoolgirl fancy dress.

- 11st 7 is what I weighed at university when I was a size 12/14

Non-weight targets:

- Run the 5K journey home from work in under 28mins. Currently at 29:45.

- 25 full press-ups in a row

- Wear a sleeveless top in public this summer


The bank holiday camping weekend was fab! I met loads of nice people and tried some new experiences like horse riding.




I didn't lie about my weight when filling in the form at the pony trekking centre as thought it would be cruel to end up on anything less than a Shire Horse.
I've booked a few more trips away with the same group. It's good to have a full diary and exciting things to talk about.